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[04 Nov 2004|07:10pm]
I think it's pretty safe to say that i'm done with Live journal.
4 Believes| Everything is gonna be alrite

[25 Aug 2004|01:14am]
This summer went by way to fast.. and im not even going to school till January. Summer sucked weather wise. So many things iv'e wanted to do that just havent happend.
-never got to go to darien lake.
-never got to go to the CITY CITY..
-never got to go to Sea Breeze, although i think im going Saturday..
- the weather was shitty.
-never went swimming more than 3 times

o00o0o0o00o well... I'm already on my second car and its got an oil leak.. fuckers!!

Matt's birthday is in a week.. i need to get him a present
Everything is gonna be alrite

88 Accord to a 94 Accord.. hells ya! [19 Aug 2004|02:01pm]
[ mood | happy ]

YAY! I got my car yesterday!!!! Matt loves it! He found it for me, kinda feel like i stole it from him, but he wouldn'd of bought it himself. Its got fucking great acceleration, I'll be racing Shawns Prelude tonight for sure! Shall be awesome like whoa!
Yesterday I saw Matt for the first time in a lil bit and actually got to spend time with him. He drove my car most of the night, i drove it hmm for about 30 mins total? if that! Hung out with Shawn and kt as well.. which i didnt know kt was gonna be with us.... annyywho! Went to Churchville park n smoked a bowl and then went to Black Creek Park to play on the swings! Then went to Taco Bell to get some food!!!! Met up with Steve @ Show World and then went back to Shawn's house. Chilled for about 30 mins and then Matt n I left to go back to Taco Bell bc he wanted more food.. Then we came to my house and chilled.. Fell asleep and woke up @ 3 and took him home..
We've been together for 3 months now.. we've had our little arguments but nothing majoy. He gets mad and then 10 mins later he's fine.
Today I got up @ like 11:30 and showered and then from 12:30- 2 i cleaned the whole interior of my car. Minus vaccuming bc I dont have a good vaccum.. gotta wait till i go to Matts to use his shop vac. So i spent an hour and a half washing and armoralling my car.. Looks pretty good, but will look 10x's better when its vaccummed. Im gonna do the whole cherry theme w/ the seat covers and all that good stuff! I think in a few months, when i get money im gonna have Matt paint the interior Black and white or red.. not quite sure yet! But my car's gonna look mint!!

Gotta work today.. meh not soo bad.. 5-9@ Pc.. then tomorrow i only have to work in the morning till 1 @ Eckerds.. i hve the whole afternoon and night to do nothing..

Alrightie, this is a lot for me.. ttyl

Everything is gonna be alrite

[17 Aug 2004|09:48pm]
[ mood | ecstatic ]

Well its been a while since i've updated... Got good news though!! well.. My car died on me driving home Thursday night from work! I was soo pissed.. BUT BUT BUT!! I went camping for the weekend so i didnt have to worry about it. That was awesome.. but dad calls me Saturday and tells me i need 500-1000 to fix it .. fuck that, i wanna new car. Sooo Sunday night Matt gets online and shows me this car, i gotta have it! I looked at it on Monday, test drove it and what not. 1994 Honda Accord! Gotta love my honda's!! Today my dad put a 500 down payment on it and tomorrow I get to pick it up. I had to take out a loan and what not soooo i need to save madd money for a while. Im sooo excited though!! it all happened all way too fast. Took me less than a day to find the car!! Was 2995, dropped to 2500... soo w/ taxes im paying exactly 2,287.25 YAYYYY!!!!

Everything is gonna be alrite

[29 Jul 2004|10:53am]
[ mood | pissed off ]

I dont care how childish this post is.you blocked me on AIM bc you know you're wrong and LIED. You're stuck in the middle of this and didn't know what to do so you BLOCKED me. Bitch. Don't fucking lie to me when i KNOW the truth. You fucking came out and just told her. All she asked was if i really wanted the job. So fuck you, don't just walk away from you're problems and senarios that you get yourself into. Thats real cool! :) We're OUT of fucking high school now, this shit should of stopped a long time ago. But no, you ENJOY talking shit, you always have and always will. I thought we were cool and i could trust you, even with that, but NO you go and just RUN you're mouth for no reason at all..
Shorti 60586 (11:03:59 PM): but WHY did u tell Robin?
*i****l*s***t* (11:04:35 PM): who knows
Shorti 60586 (11:05:09 PM): which she told many a people im sure
Shorti 60586 (11:05:13 PM): which is fucked
*i****l***r*t* (11:05:19 PM): who the hell would she tell
t******d**r*t* (11:05:23 PM): she doesnt know anyone that you know
Shorti 60586 (11:05:37 PM): it doesnt matter
Shorti 60586 (11:05:42 PM): she didnt have any point of knowing
So you just think it's okay to tell everyone anything, even personal shit like that?
Whatever dude, thats fucked up no matter how you look at it.

Why do people lie about stupid pointless shit!? All ya had to say was yes i told her, end of story not let it drag on like it has.
Okay im done, and i dont care how many bitchy comments i get either, this was the only way i was gonna get this across to YOU

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[16 Jul 2004|12:31am]
[ mood | amused ]

Dontcha just wanna steal him!?Collapse )

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Nothing but smiles!! [15 Jul 2004|01:01am]
[ mood | loved ]

So yeah, i don't really see a point in the journal anymore, but it gets stuff of my chest and i'll continue to keep it, regardless that anyone cares! :)

1st things first, A lot of people just fucking suck, and i could careless about them! Prolly have no idea who they are but ..what do i care? haha

Today i got up n Matt picked me up and took me out to lunch. Went to billy G's where he works, mad good food! Played in the arcade for a while, it was a lot of fun just joking around and what not. Went back to his house and cuddled and what not for about an hour and then i had to leave to get ready for work. worked my last nite at Eckerds for the week!! yippee!! Now i got 24 hours to put in at Party City! Tonight went really well, i can close by myself pretty much, didnt even need ryan there. I actually like it a lot now. Have 14.5 hours next week.. although im scheduled to work monday 8:30-11:30 in the AM.. however i just remembered I CANT!.. got something impt to do at 10!! I didnt think i woulda had to of taken off, but i guess i should of. Soooo Monday will be my day off, thank god, i need one!!
However, im working tues, wed, fri. there.. not bad. Last week of training.
Im rollin in the money!! My summers going JUST as planned, gotta car, 2 jobs, my oh so wonderful boyfriend! couldnt be happier!!


p/s/ if ur lifes going shitty right now, i feel bad for you.. OH WAIT! *gasp* No I DONT!! bhahaha.. well that all just depends on exactly who you are! ;)

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Blink 182 was fucking amazing!!!! [31 May 2004|12:45am]
[ mood | ecstatic ]

Just got home from the Taking Back Sunday, The Used and BLINK 182 CONCERT @ Darien Lake..
my voice is all scratchy and my throat hurts.. omg omg omg omg omg omg
It was ammmaaaazzziinnnngggg..
Row 200.. practically RIGHT there!!!!
TBS: AWESOME as hell, 30 minute set.. good times!!
The Used: Holy fuck dude. boys kissing and girls kissing. Random people Bert made come up on stage and just make out. I dont think the boys really kissed but damn the girls did.. haha. Then the one boy took over the mic. it was awesome, he got all into that shit. Girls deffinately kissed for a long time..
30 minute set as well..

Blink 182.. oh my fucking god. I was going innnsaanne.. you wouldnt believe it. I was soo siked to see them play. omg omg omg!! I was all over the place. Tom is fucking hawt like whoaa. They played awesome, you had to of been there to know, or previously seen them play. Travis dissapeared and then reapeared in the middle of the crowd on a little stage and rotated and played a solo for a long time, he was like 100 feet from me.. omg dude hes amazing and super HOT! They bashed Marks guitar around afterwards, fucking amazing. I cant believe i saw them for real!! I bought a sick poster and a wrist band!! wooot

Only rode 2 rides at the park... and we were there from 1:30-6:30.. haha. The Viper and Superman of course. They got real strict on that ride though, thank god they reopened it yesterday. Stood in line from 3:15-4:30ish.. it was awesommmeee... Deffinately amazing as hell and free falling from that huge drop with my arms way up in the air. omg it was awesome.
TBS got on right before us too.. hehe

I miss my baby.. im gonna go though bc i gotta work 10-5 tomorrow.. eewww long day! Then hopefully seeing Matt since i havent since Prom night.

Peace out faukers...

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Prom Pics!! woooottttt [29 May 2004|08:17pm]
[ mood | happy ]

If it wasn't for talking to Nick n him asking if i had any pics of Matt yet, I never would of thought of Scanning my pics! i never used the scanner before but damn i learned quick!!!! Heres a few from before Prom n what not!!


Thats me n My baby Matt!!!! awwwwwww

P-R-O-M 2004!Collapse )



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Wild Horses ~ Bush.. [09 May 2004|09:25pm]
childhood living is easy to do
the things that you wanted, i bought them for you
graceless lady you know who I am
you know i can't let you slip through my hands

wild horses couldn't drag me away
wild, wild horses couldn't drag me away

i watched you suffer a dull aching pain
now you decided to show me the same
no sweeping exit or off stage lines
could make me feel bitter or treat you unkind

wild horses couldn't drag me away
wild, wild horses couldn't drag me away

i know i've dreamed you a sin and a lie
i have my freedom but i don't have much time
faith has been broken, tears must be cried
let's do some living after we die

wild horses couldn't drag me away
wild, wild horses we'll ride them someday
wild horses couldn't drag me away
wild, wild horses we'll ride them someday
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Believe me, Im just as lost as you.. [03 May 2004|11:52pm]
[ mood | giddy ]

got my soc. paper done, finally... the window was open since yesterday when i started it, and it took me about 2 hours to finish it tonite. and its on goldilocks and the 3 bears..
I just couldn't concentrate, my mind was elsewhere...

Tonight was good, work was good.. got into a silly string- water gun fight and ran around the store.. haha!
I annoyed the fuck out of one of my managers, it was great!
I was just not motivated at all today..
I looked dead today, was told i looked like a zombie.. haha and my teacher said i looked high.
I got like a total of 12 hours, if THAT this weekend of sleep.. i was so utterly tired today...it sucked!

My friend got her nips pierced :o!

why is it we always want what we can't have??

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Reminder to SELF [03 May 2004|03:21pm]
[ mood | flustered! ]

Projects due:

  • Sociology: Paper due on the 5th... Scrapbook due on June 9th, fuuucckk
  • Early Childhood: Project due on the 14th.
  • English: FINAL presentation: 24th.. fuck, i got so much shit to do for that :\
  • Intro: project in class.. not bad....

Doesnt seem like a lot but boy oh boy it is...

Along with many other things that need to be done.. blaahhh.. so glad its my last year!



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La De Da!! [02 May 2004|11:21pm]
[ mood | hopeful ]



hahahahahCollapse )

Devil 2 Most: i just thought of your eye
Shorti 60586: fuck that
Devil 2 Most: that one night
Shorti 60586: LMAO
Shorti 60586: hahaha
Devil 2 Most: omgggg
Shorti 60586: dude it was soo much worse than u saw it
Shorti 60586: aww man
Shorti 60586: hahahah
Devil 2 Most: i d never go out in public
Devil 2 Most: HAHA
Shorti 60586: i needed to get out.. lol

Everything is gonna be alrite

pot :-o [02 May 2004|07:39pm]
[ mood | sore ]

People never show their true identity. Theres always something that they hide from one particular person or a group of people. Out of fear of rejection or some other reason.
And it's funny, because I do that not knowing i do it. Theres just some things I don't really hide, but don't let it get out around certain people, and then others.. i could give two fucks.
I believe we are all like that as well.

My legs itched from 2:30- till about 5:30 non stop and they still semi itch, but not as bad. My guess is its from tanning, but that was 3 days ago..Robin said from the weather, and that could very well possibly be it. I was freaking out and crying cuz it WOULDNT STOP itching. I got out the calamine lotion and everything. It was INSANE!! The trees freaking bloomed in one day. everything is all green again. awww im happy!! :)

Yeah and i deffinately still didnt do any of my 2 papers today.... Im gonna do one tonight, I swear, or else ill be pissed at myself.. and yeah!! rar!!

kIllERZRbad812: disgustingly hot
--haha ethan i luv ya! :)

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goood times! [29 Apr 2004|10:56pm]
[ mood | sweepie!! ]

Today was awesome from the start. I woke up to a message from Nikkie that just made my day!! :) I knew after I read that nothing could go wrong and i was soo right!! School was alrite, ya know.. same shit. Didnt do a whole too lot. After school I went to Nikkies and chilled with her for a few hours and told her my whole life story. Mainly about my ex..ahh fucker..(not fiege)Then around about 4 Katie came and picked us up and we went tanning. Stayed in for 10 mins. My boobs are burnt and they hurt :p Nikkie had to get going bc she was leaving so Jennie was like to me.. *Do you wanna go home*.. me, no! haha. sooo I left with Katie and brought this girl home who I forgot her name.. and then Jennie took Nikkie home and then met us up at Katies. We went out to pick up her bro and then went to Bill Grey's. I got a yummie strawberrie milkshake!! boy was it good!! Went back with Jennie and chilled while Katie left to pick up someone. I hung out with Jennie from like 5-9.. It was great. I only met her once before and today I got to know her pretty well. We drove around Chili for like an hour if not longer just talking. I had bunches of fun. She likes Yellowcard n SOTY :) :) We went to Wegmans and i got MAJOR fucking cramps, let me tell you!! boy they hurt!! I had her take me home a lil after 9 so I could watch a movie for english for my snr project. It wasnt all that bad, learned a lot more about pyramids! haha
Tomorrow I gotta work. It was great, not. But I came home to a stickie note sitting on my comp. desk. How lovely is that? My parents can't even verbally communicate with me anymore, they gotta leave me notes. That simply says i need to find a ride home from work tomorrow bc they have plans! WTF.. haha
Nikkie and Brandon and i BELIEVE Shaun are gonna pick me up.. yay! thanks guys!!
So yeah, Im hanging out with all them tomorrow night and maybe going to the beach bc its just so fucking beautiful outside. Idk.. i hope we do SOMETHING!
It was cute, shaun kept appologizing last nite for him not feeling good and for nothing really going on. haha hes so cute!
Im tired as fuck now, and im kinda burnt. The feeling of summer has returned. So im happy!

nothing but smiles from meee

ps//I hate being a fricken girl! >:o

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[Insert whatever the fuck you want here] [29 Apr 2004|12:14am]
[ mood | arrgggg ]

Today was alrite
Got up late, as usual!! Which sucks because I hate rushing. School was alright I guess... umm nothing too special other than my elbow freaking hurts like hell because I jammed it on the table in lunch and then SOMEONE *ethan* kepts pulling my legs and i kept slipping on the seat so i kept landing on my elbow!! :(. It's all bruised and shizz, Jessica said it looks like a pimple. ew. no it doesnt! haha! Didnt have to run today in gym, instead i did homework! woo hoo.. Who does homework when they can play? HAHA! I do!! I ALWAYS get hit with balls though, it pisses me off. Im like a freaking ball magnet.
Work was.. okay and busy. OMG this little girl kept wanting me to pick her up and we were like playing kinda it was soo cute!! I wanted to steal her and take her home!!! awwww!
I got shot with water at the end of the night though from water guns.. how fun!!
Came home and called nikki and pat. Shaun picked me up a lil bit after 10 and we all went to Wild Wings and watched Nikkie and Brandon eat! haha good times! Didnt do a whole lot at all.. chilled for a lil bit afterwards and then went home a lil after 12. Dont think Im going to prom, his boss is a douche.. o well. i figured that much. *Shrug*

Now Im going to bed.. im tired and not in a great mood.
got pre-cramps and i dont like it :\.


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Take chances [27 Apr 2004|08:33pm]
[ mood | *ahhh* ]

I feel so dirty right now...i was hanging out in the woods chillin with Bub for like an hour this afternoon. Its so pieceful out there, but very muddy and ickie..O well.. I'll shower in a bit!
I took Matt to the preschool today!! I was so excited! Everyone thought he was my son, which yeah he looks like me a lot, but that would mean i had him when I was like 13.. eepp!! He had such a great time, I spoiled him and bought him Mickey D's before hand and gave him extra food while we were there! When i have a kid, I want him/her to be just like him! I love kids and can't wait to have one, well actually i can wait, but im gonna be an awesome mother!! Not for QUITE a few years though.. Anyhow!!
Today was actually quite good..school dragged though. Im doing ALL of my work now, and making sure Im working on my projects and that they are gonna be done ON TIME!! :) I feel.. kinda relieved that I know WHAT i have to do, its just putting it all together that takes time! Last night at work, well afternoon, i worked on my homework for about an hour or so before I punched in. And I'll do the same tomorrow. I don't mind going so early, seeings how i can eat and get online and do whatever pretty much. :-p. Tonight I went to Blockbuster hoping to get some kind of movie on Pyramids for my english project, nope they didn't have a thing. So i proceeded to the Library, got 2 movies.. gotta watch em though, which kinda sucks... O well, I have to have it handed in to my teacher by Friday so he can view it.
Shouldnt Be Too Bad..

Tomorrow after work i believe im going out with Shaun, Nikkie, and Brandon.. going to the movies prolly, or the beach. And deffinately Thursday going to the Beach seeings how its gonna be soooo nice out.. 70s-80s!! SWEET!
Jake got the Blink tix.. im excited!! WOOOO HOOOO!!!!

I dont get itCollapse )
I should hopefully find out today if I'm going to Prom or not.
Im SOOO WHITE! it's pathetic. I think I'm gonna start going tanning? Or the sun needs to hurry the hell up and get out and nice n hot so i can lay out again. I'm like freaking ghostly! I hate it!!!!

O YEAH!! I HATE FUCKING CRAMPS #%$#^$@%&!! >:0

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from Robin.. [27 Apr 2004|11:29am]
[ mood | thoughtful ]

If you think about this, its so true, and can happen to ANYONE!

Suicide: The Permanent Solution To A Temporary Problem

Ask the 25-year-old who tried to electrocute himself. He lived. But both his arms are gone.

What about jumping? Ask John. He used to be intelligent, with an engaging sense of humor. That was before he leapt from a building. Now, he's brain-damaged and will always need care. He staggers and has seizures. He lives in a fog. But, worst of all, he KNOWS he used to be normal.

What about pills? Ask the 12-year-old with extensive liver damage from an overdose. Have you ever seen anyone die of liver damage? You turn yellow. It's a hard way to go.

What about a gun? Ask the 24-year-old who shot himself in the head. Now he drags one leg, has a useless arm and has no vision or hearing on one side. He lived through his "foolproof" suicide. You might too.

But... Who will clean your blood off the carpet or scrape your brains from the ceiling? Commercial cleaning companies may refuse that job--but SOMEONE has to do it.

Who will have to cut you down from where you hung yourself or identify your bloated body after you've drowned? Your father? Your mother? Your wife? Your son?

The carefully worded "loving" suicide note is of no help. Those who loved you will NEVER completely recover. They'll feel regret and an unending pain.

Suicide is contagious. Look around your family. Look closely at the 4 year old playing with his cars on the rug. Kill yourself tonight, and he may do it ten years from now.

You DO have other choices. There are people who can help you through this crisis. Call a hotline. Call a friend. Call your minister or priest. Call a doctor or hospital. Call the police. They will tell you that there's hope. Maybe you'll find it in the mail tomorrow. Or in a phone call this weekend. But what you're seeking could be just a minute, a month, or a day away.

You say you don't want to be stopped? Still want to do it? -Well, then, I may see you in the psychiatric ward later. And we'll work with whatever you have left.

Remember: Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.


Everything is gonna be alrite

Should i bite my tounge till blood soaks my shirt?! [26 Apr 2004|03:18pm]
[ mood | aggravated ]

People(meaning one specifically) need to stop talking about things they don't know. That fucked my day up from the start, glad things are now settled and there was nothing to worry about. your a doushe! RAR!
On the other hand, yesterday was a loong day at work 10-5:30..my feet hurt so bad when i got home!
I developed pickchas from when i was drunk and whatnot, but they werent mine and my dad kept on persisting to see them! I gave them to my friend and just hopped in his car, haha.. my rents had no clue where the hell i was.
I came home two 2 missed calls. Was gonna go out with shaun, nikkie, and brandon but didnt. I walked with bub and talked with him :\.. Was gonna go see Renouf but didnt.
Had a 2 hour conversation with someone last nite..:\

Today was alrite, i was really pissed this morning and stressed out about school and the million projects i have to do. I got it all settled now and know what i have to do for english.

Im taking quite a bit of homework and projects to work since im gonna be there an hr and a half early, bc other than that, i wouldnt have a ride. So ill get a lot done. Then after work i gotta find a ride home somehow.. this sucks!!

Intro- project
Soc.- 2 projects
English- HUGE project
Early Childhood- 1 project...

Thats a lot that i have to get done within a month :\ Im not happy about that

4 Believes| Everything is gonna be alrite

[25 Apr 2004|01:53am]

this is my ALL time favorite picture of Bub!!! Isnt he just soo hugable?!?!

he looks stonedd!! hahha!!



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